The Pack.

THE LEADER OF THE PACK.

The one, the only,

UNCLE BILL!

(Jubal, Gabriel, Jack)

+

(Jared, Jordan, Julie)

=

one hell of a team!

OH YEAH!

Look at these studs and gals :D

We raced coming back ,

all three dogs + all three humans

It was BEAST!

:]

Journal.

Okay, so I really don't know why but I feel the urge to make a journal out of this somehow.

Today, I am happy with a glint of sadness. I watched Seven Pounds last night[not spoiling anything I swear] and it made me think of my friend who died, named Russell. He was horribly injured in a car crash a week before the beach-house fire that killed the seven college students from USC and Clemson, also right around the time one of my friends' brother died.

I wanted to take the time to say...

Dear God,
Why...? Why did you take the lives of these... these children. Children with lives ahead of them, with futures and families. Why did you take them away from their parents, siblings, friends and other loved ones? Why did we have to take such heartbreak and pain into our hearts and onto our shoulders?
I know there is a reason for everything, but I can't possibly imagine a reason for this. For some this was nothing, someone they didn't know, someone they never would. For others this was someone they loved, maybe even the only person or persons they believed they had. Every one of these souls had a reason, a place amongst this place of which we abide. So, why?
Now that I've asked why, I have but one more request. Please let them know we love them. Let them know the things they had yet to learn here on earth. Let them be happy and free, wherever they are. Please watch over them and watch over their families. Please bring cheer back into the lives of those remaining and help them to stand strong.
Sincerely,
Questioning...

I wish I could see his face,
touch his skin with such a grace.
Hold him close
just to feel the warmth
of being with the one I love
instead of me being here
and him up above.
Dear God,
make me a bird
so that maybe I could fly
fly high in the sky
through the clouds
against the wind
so that I may see his shimmering existence.
I know he can't hear but I love him so
rest in peace, my dear Russell.

If you are reading this, say a prayer for those families and loved ones that are missing someone they hold dear, someone that is no longer near.

Thank you.

Car rides + fun times = cramped situations :]

POOR JULIE! :D

"Why do they both have to be on my lap?!" - Julie :D

^Jack + Julie^

^Jubal^

^Me and Jack^

A car ride with Jack and Jubal to pick up Jordan from work. :] Fun times and cramped situations. Poor Julie. :) Both dogs on one skinny lap. Hahaha XD

JORDAN THE COFFEE KING :]

Jordan[Borscht von Bolt] working hard at making his adoring fans a treat they will remember!

Look at that service!

Jordan made us coffee after lunch at Saffron's! :) He looks so professional at his job! I got an espresso and Julie got a latte. They were fantastically splendiferous yummy lil treats! :)

ilovendj. :)

Wednesday Lunch at Saffron's :]

FOOD XD

Delicious "cooling rice pudding" :]

Look at the pretty decorations!

Looks like someone is enjoying their naan! :]

^Julie[JulieIsWHOA]^

LUNCH: Saffron Indian Cuisine. :)
Two thumbs way up! :]
Possibly one of the best restarants I've ever been to! Poor Jordan had to miss it because of work. :( It was super delicious! :]
ilovendj. :)

Haha I'm a dinosaur! RAWER!! XD

YAY!! I'm a triceratops! :) Hahahaha. Inside joke. :)
Love you to you know who you are! :)
ilovendj. :)

A poem entitled simply put, You

as i gaze into the very eyes

impossible thoughts penetrate my wall

my wall built to keep it out

keep me out... keep you out

bleeding on the inside

wound-less on the surface

torn to shreds with no evidence

no scars, marks or reasons to believe

no urge to continue

and yet i must

for a dying cause or is it lost

to you, to me..to the outside world looking in

my mind still wanting

i try to shut it out

but you always seep back through

all the way to the core

ow.. it makes me sore.

the bitterness, the pain

your face... your presence

i love those lips and hair

your inside and out

but forever mine you are not

an emptiness with no hope of content

a bottomless pit of thorns

and yet a hint of sunshine

dull but true

yes.. its you.

even though you are gone

you're here, with me.

the feeling i crave

the need to behave

before insanity becomes my reality

never to walk the same direction as once before

those words erased from my mind

my vocabulary..and yet they sit stored

in a filing cabinet

in the back of a black room

no windows

nor doors of any sort

no openings for light

or way to escape

no power to be generated

the pilot is out

never to return

the memories filed away

where forever they shall stay

not to come out

must remain strong and stout

believe in one's self

and thou shall be rewarded

fall and thyself shall be destroyed

put up no fight

or thy fate shall endure

great pain and loss

so.. what's the point?

does anyone know?

i think not but will

imagine anyways.

love: forever a mystery

forever unsolved

with no hope of resolvement

subject lost to everyday thought

lost in a depth of untraveled terrain

the fight for a lost cause

which was given up ages ago

never to be won

indecisive people

the cause of one's frustration

and torment

LOVE... a meaningless word

with never-ending synonyms

never set "in stone"opinion-filled, fact-less word..

which can defined as

infinite possibilities

and yet nothing at all

discouraging chain of events

leads down dead-end road

of one's choice..the choice that is never chosen

and yet inevitable

Love is an everlasting ember of hatred
and yet sought out by everyone among us..
why?
riddle me that?

its my only request.

The end, a new beginning.

the end.. a new beginning..

cutting

slashing

ripping through.
razor

skin

yes..blood too.
emotion

pain

love

heartbreak

life

death

everything you have

all at stake
blood drains down

upon the blade

down the sink

and begins to fade
its over

im done

"are you happy?!"

"..wasn't that fun?"
no.

its not.

its a false illusion

it was not a mistake

but a wrong conclusion
have to stop it

before it takes over..

again..

i have to..

yes..

its addiction
you know this..

it will get so bad

until it is meaningless pain

and then what..

go insane again..?
one day cutting

next its drugs
so stop it now

before its too late

drop the drugs

put down your blade..
get a life

start over

go out..

have fun.
never return

to this

horrid addiction.

This..

this was about me.

Like I said in a previous post, I have had many problems.

I'm super glad that I myslef can say, without a bad consciende chiming in, that I am clean.

Stop, and rethink it.

you scare me

please..

don't hit me again

don't call me names

or neglect

just..try to re-begin

start all over

it's a whole other chance

its a new type of dance..

listen to the rhythm

it doesn't have to rhyme.

just do it.

not when i say

or someone else says

do it on your own time..

not on me or you

or someother helpless victim

but..

kick it

lick it

break it

do whatever you like

but think about the consequences..

go for it

splurge

quench your thirst

fulfill the need,

the urge

be different

don't be afraid..

to change

This was written awhile ago as well.

'Twas written as a try at opening someone's eyes to reality.

What love means to me.

Love is just a word until..
you truly mean it when you say it
until.. you touch and really feel something
until.. you call and actually want to talk
until.. you see them and instantly feel bubbly..
your kiss..it means nothing unless you want it..
your actions..are meaningless unless you commit
you never REALLY love
until you know what love means..

Anout someone who will never know.

not scared but a bit
i take that back
maybe just a little
okay im terrified
what IS this feeling?
could it be what i think it is?
is it possibly..
no it can't be..
but it has to be..
love..
i know i've just met him
but i'm already sure
i like him..
no wait there's more
he's making me want him
wanting him badly
and i know that he knows
i'm pretty sure he does too..
of course, i could be wrong
i've been wrong before..
so many times..
but, OH how he does me
with that gleam in his eye
the smile on his face
the hint in his tone
the shortening of space
with every step, every word
every smile,
hell.. everything he does
i always want more.
does he know what he's doing?
how much i desire?
how much.. he already has me..?
his actions say one thing
words say another
i wonder.. should i go further
should i even bother
i know..i want to
is it the right thing to do?
am i leading myself on..?
possibly traveling the wrong path..
all i know is..
i've got it bad..
i think i love him.

I wrote this... FOREVER ago.
the first day of band camp
when he arrived.
It was like I instantly knew
and I couldn't get over it untill recently :]
I have a new love :]
and I am sooooooo happy.
For once, I feel free.
You know?
Tis amazing.
The sensation of being with the one you love,
neing so close you can fell their breath.
ah...
But yes, I love to write poetry.
So be sure to comment and let me kno w what you think.

THANKS!
love you all,
Jarebear

PEACE.

A little more about me.

Okay one about me :) I'm pretty much BIG into ToWriteLoveOnHerArms, which is a non-profit organization to prevent teenage suicide and to get help for those who need it. That used to be me. I'm a walking, talking, everyday human being. I have problems. But on brighter terms. I'M CLEAN :) YIPPEEEEEE. Hahaha. <3
So spread the word. The word is love :)
ilovendj. :)

PIANO PROJECT DILEMMA. =\

Okay,

So I was assigned a project, me and my friend CHOSE to make a piano.

Bahahaha.

We screwed ourselves. XP This is what it looks like. We've come across a problem though. Our wood is splitting and our screws are splitting. :( EEK! What should we do?

JAREBEAR + MIRDANDY

that's us. :]

Jack.

Jack attack!

This is my dog.

My dog is amazing.

We are like best buds.

I try to take him everywhere I can

and

if I can't

well,
sometimes I just don't go. :]

He's three and a half.

Full-blooded dachshund.

My love.

He has a sky blue eye and a dark brown one.

He has spots on his head and the softest ears.

He loves my aunt's[FiberDeviant] dog, Jubal.

oooooooooooooo

they think they are bad. XD

He loves to wear the sweaters my aunt[FiberDevaint] makes him.

We howl at the passing sirens together. :]

Definitely a keeper.

I love him so much!

A week with my cousins.

day one.

Day one: we went to the mall, made fun of each other, fought[not really], and went to see the lights at Hollywild.

Day Two

Day two: woke up and at breakfast at this amazing Colombian restarant[Cositas Ricas], came home and chilled, vidoe games, blogs, etc, then we went to see Seven Pounds.[personal rating=10 out of 10, Julie=8 + Jordan=7]

Day three.

Me, Julie, Jordan, Aunt Joanna, Uncle Bill, Jack and Jubal all headed down to Downtown Greenville to wander around aimlessly amongst the harshly cold temperatures and later moved out to Downtown Easley to pursue a Happy New Years festival. :]

BRRRRRRR.

That's right, we're cool!

+Jared[me]

+Julie[JulieIsWoah]

+Jordan

-three muskateers

-cousins

-friends

*We go together,

like rama lama lama ka dinga da dinga dong,

remembered forever

as shoobop sha wadda wadda yippity boom de boom.

Chang chang changitty chang shoobop,

that's the way it should be,

wha oooh, yeah!

We're one of a kind,

like dip dadip dadip doowop da doobee doo,

our names are signed

boogedy boogedy boogedy boogedy shooby doowop shebop.

Chang chang changitty chang shoobop,

we'll always be like one,

one, one, one, one!

When we go out at night,

and stars are shinin' bright

up in the skies above,

or at the high school dance,

where you can find romance,

maybe it might be love.

rama lama lama ka dinga da dinga dongs

hoobop sha wadda wadda yippity boom de boom

chang chang changitty chang shoobop

dip dadip dadip doowop da doobee doo

boogedy boogedy boogedy boogedy shooby doowop shebop

shada sha wadda wadda yippity boom de boom

rama lama lama ka dinga da dinga dong

shoobop sha wadda wadda yippity boom de boom

chang chang changitty chang shoobop

dip dadip dadip doowop da doobee doo

boogedy boogedy boogedy boogedy shooby doowop shebop

shada sha wadda wadda yippity boom de boom

a wop baba doo da a wop bam boom

We're for eachother like a wop baba lumop and wop bam boom

Just like my brother is sha na na na na na yippity dip deboom

Chang chang ah chang-itty chang shoo bop

We'll always be together waoo yeah!

We'll always, be together*

"Families are like fudge - mostly sweet with a few nuts." ~Author Unknown

WE'RE THE NUTS! :]

I love them to death.

Hahaha, literally. 0_o

We fight non-stop,

but I would do anything for them.

We're pretty tight, I guess.

I trust them with my life.

Well,

that's my first blog.

WHAD'YA THINK?

:]